I'm a 16 year old male...suffering from major depression...I don't care if I'm pathetic...I love you...?

I am an 18 year old girl who has been suffering from depression for more than five years and has finally realized it. I really feel you. I am similar to what you are. when i am around others i am the sometimes roudy, strong, jokester girl but on the inside i am slowly rotting away, feeling like fulfilling my dreams still won't bring happiness to my life.I was like you but i got my dream guy but it ended not too long ago. it lasted for 5 years.. now i am hopeless about love, we thought about getting married but this repeating factor, my depression, ruined it. I never thought it was depression but i looked up symptoms and i have realized that i am mentally unstable. I, too, feel the pain you feel. I understand. It's okay.. hopefully with help we will both be okay! :)